1Bicket.

im sorry its been so much crap up here.

it really doesnt match the meaning of the url.

apologies, if theyre ever enough.

DONT FUCKEN CARE PLS.

ugh.

yea, maybe this beautiful creation is where i let loose my wildest demons.

i tear myself up over things like these.

the stupid words i say
the mean things i appear to mean.
my imperfections
and me.

im not enough, dont say i am.
im not loving enough, dont say i am.

dont say you love me, im not worth that.
dont say you miss me, i dont think theres anything in here worth missing.

body spasm, kill yourself worthy,
UNworthy spit of demon plague and what not.

i am no poet, and i am no lover.
i am inhuman and i cannot see.

i am fucken crazy.
dnt fucken kare plse.

im useless, because i am me.
its not fatalism,
its revelation.

why do i do this.
why do i sting my heart and soul like this.
why does it happen so often.

is it something as simple as a moodswing
or are i cooperative schizophrenia
that gets mad and takes turns.

i get like this when i fail someone
i get like this when i am inadequate
i get like this when there is no one to tell this to
i get like this when i am alone.
i get like this when i am in the dark, with the music.
i get like this when i am unneeded.
i get like this, when i am fucken fucked with my fucking self.

am i angry
am i sad?
am i emo
am i futile
am i missing someone
am i lonely
am i despondent
am i pretending?
am i being stupid
am i being silly
am i exhibiting terrorism
am i breaking down
am i tired
am i unhappy
am i sadistic
am i masochistic
am i problematic
am i difficult
am i negative
am i pessimistic
am i evil
am i longing
am i addicted
am i pained
am i scornful
am i jealous
am i selfish
am i idiotic
am i justified
am i playing
am i apologetic
am i unlevel-headed
am i lacking
am i aggressive
am i protesting
am i muderous
am i schizophrenic
am i sober
am i drunk
am i crazy
am i Going Crazy?
am i uncontent
am i a knife to my own neck
am i my worst nightmare
am i caffinated
am i sick
am i deathbed ready
am i disillusioned
am i disenlightened
am i loving too little
am i loving too much
am i immature
am i fucked up
am i not thinking enough
am i thinking more than needed
am i unnecessary
am i redundant
am i blind
am i deaf
am i mute
am i pus-filled, ulcer-laden
am i disgusting
am i horrible
am i salty
am i worthless
am i dead
am i not going to respawn
am i resigned to my fate
am i love-struck
am i bee-stung
am i poor
am i spending too much
am i too miserly


am i ...

am i lost?

i think i am.

give the deathstar a life.

here we go again.

i guess. its me after all.

i couldnt quarrel. id just try to stop.

ill just sit here till i melt down i guess.

im tempted to use the U word.

Useless.