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DONT FUCKEN CARE PLS.

ugh.

yea, maybe this beautiful creation is where i let loose my wildest demons.

i tear myself up over things like these.

the stupid words i say
the mean things i appear to mean.
my imperfections
and me.

im not enough, dont say i am.
im not loving enough, dont say i am.

dont say you love me, im not worth that.
dont say you miss me, i dont think theres anything in here worth missing.

body spasm, kill yourself worthy,
UNworthy spit of demon plague and what not.

i am no poet, and i am no lover.
i am inhuman and i cannot see.

i am fucken crazy.
dnt fucken kare plse.

im useless, because i am me.
its not fatalism,
its revelation.

why do i do this.
why do i sting my heart and soul like this.
why does it happen so often.

is it something as simple as a moodswing
or are i cooperative schizophrenia
that gets mad and takes turns.

i get like this when i fail someone
i get like this when i am inadequate
i get like this when there is no one to tell this to
i get like this when i am alone.
i get like this when i am in the dark, with the music.
i get like this when i am unneeded.
i get like this, when i am fucken fucked with my fucking self.

am i angry
am i sad?
am i emo
am i futile
am i missing someone
am i lonely
am i despondent
am i pretending?
am i being stupid
am i being silly
am i exhibiting terrorism
am i breaking down
am i tired
am i unhappy
am i sadistic
am i masochistic
am i problematic
am i difficult
am i negative
am i pessimistic
am i evil
am i longing
am i addicted
am i pained
am i scornful
am i jealous
am i selfish
am i idiotic
am i justified
am i playing
am i apologetic
am i unlevel-headed
am i lacking
am i aggressive
am i protesting
am i muderous
am i schizophrenic
am i sober
am i drunk
am i crazy
am i Going Crazy?
am i uncontent
am i a knife to my own neck
am i my worst nightmare
am i caffinated
am i sick
am i deathbed ready
am i disillusioned
am i disenlightened
am i loving too little
am i loving too much
am i immature
am i fucked up
am i not thinking enough
am i thinking more than needed
am i unnecessary
am i redundant
am i blind
am i deaf
am i mute
am i pus-filled, ulcer-laden
am i disgusting
am i horrible
am i salty
am i worthless
am i dead
am i not going to respawn
am i resigned to my fate
am i love-struck
am i bee-stung
am i poor
am i spending too much
am i too miserly


am i ...

am i lost?

i think i am.

give the deathstar a life.